The Affair (II)

I went into my room and tried to go to sleep, but I just couldn’t thing were swirling around in my mind. A jumble of classes, Gabrielle, Sabrina, and emotion filled my mind I just couldn’t find a way to avoid thinking about it. I eventually fell asleep. I woke to a beating on my door. BAM, BAM, BAM, BAM in quick rapid sucession. I asked “who is it” “it is me Donald” I opened the door. “what is it man” “well that ride that I got she decided to stay for a little while and chill. Things started to get a little hot and such so I need a condom” said Donald. “first of all you know I don’t have any condoms, second did you come to rub this in my face” I said “no, not at all. I know you don’t have any condoms, but what about craig” “I not stealing from craig” “listen I will buy him a whole pack for just one of his, that is a deal, a great deal.” “fine, they are in a box under his bed. Take one, and only one.” I said.

I went back to sleep. I awoke this time on my own. The next morning I tried to watch a little TV, but it being Sunday very little was on so I decided I would go for a walk. I would normally have gone to Donald’s room, but he may still have copmapny. I walk for quite a while then finally I came upon a park. Funnny I had never seen this park before nor had I heard of it. I was nice there were no other people around. I sat there for about twenty minutes then my phone rang. I answered my phone it was Gabrielle. “Hey” I said. “I know that you are mad because I did not call you when I got back to school, but me and some friends went out and we started to drink a little bit and I got a little tipsy. I know you don’t like it when I drink. So I just didn’t call.” “to be honest gabrielle I didn’t even notice that you didn’t call. I went out and hung with some friends” “so you are not mad?” she asked me. “no not right now” “great, because there is a party that I am going to tonight” I have some English work to do and then I am getting ready. The party is out of town, so we are leaving about 7:00. I will call you when I get back to my dorm” she told me. “who is all going” I asked. “Donna, Tommy, Eddie, Sherri, Zach, lawrence, Jerome, Eric, and J-boy” she told me. “seven dudes and three girls, how are you all going to fit in Sherri’s car?” I asked her. “we are going in J-boy’s car. Do you have a problem with that?” “well yeah. You are going out drinking with a bunch of guys and I am supposed to be okay with that.” “yeah if you trusted me you wouldn’t be bothered by that” she told me. If you respected me you would not go out drinking with a bunch of guys” she then abruptly hung up in my face. I didn’t even call her back I just sat there on the bench. I then walked back to my dorm to think.

The next day I awoke to my alarm. Craig didn’t move as usual. I walked through the halls hearing all the normal sounds of the the morning in our dormitory I knocked on Donald’s door. His roommate Kevin answered the door. “what up V” nothing much man is Donald coming to class” “I am coming my alarm didn’t go off I just got up maybe a minute ago.” Donald said. “hurry up man” I told him. I was in a rush, we were getting assignments for class in biology plus partners. “Hey, man where were you yesterday I wanted to tell you that girl from the other night, she was a freakI punished it she was screaming. I have never heard anyone scream that loud in my life. I was just going to hit it doggy, but she wanted to do this thing where I am standing and I grab her by her ankles and pull her back and forth. It was crazy I tore her up!” “ Is that really the way you should talk about her. It is disrepectful” I said angrily. “No it isn’t I didn’t call her a slut or chicken-head. She wanted me to do that it was all her idea. So don’t get mad at me because your girlfriend won’t have sex with you. I will talk to you later I got to get to class.” Donald told me. I got to classs on time. I sat down and about a minute later Sabrina came into the room and sat next to me “I hear that all we are doing to day is getting assignments and parteners. “okay class I don’t want hold you up much today I am just giving you these papers it is the assignment for your project.” I got my paper we were supposed to fill two jars with water from a pond or lake or sewer. As long as it was natural and in the open no facet water. Then put plants from nature in it then one jar we add chemicals and dirt or other things. The other we leave alone and observe the difference. Professor Hamilton started to assign Partners. I was partnered with Sabrina “great I was hoping we would be put together on the project. I will pick you up at 5:00 so that we can start.” “okay that will be fine” The rest of the day I was thinking about what Donald had said to me maybe I was just upset because of the whole Gabrielle situation.

I was outside waiting for Sabrina. She drove up and I got in the car “I know a spot where there is a pipe that dumps sewer water and a park not far from there. I thought that we could start there.” Sabrina said. We arrived at the sewer dump and Sabrina handed me the two jars. I took one. “take both” she told me. “You are not coming?” I asked “no I don’t want to get dirty” she said. I laughed “it isn’t funny” “I think it is I gave her the two jars. “listen, I will get the water, but you have to hand me the jars. We walked down and got the water or rather I did she stayed as far away as she could and still hand me the jars. She was on her tip toes on some loose ground. “hey you are going to fall in if you don’t get off the loose ground. Instead she went back to the car with the on filled jar. I finished filling the other, and went back to the car. “I know where we can get some sea weed or algea, whatever it is called” I told Sabrina We went to the lake at the park I had been at Sunday. I went to the lake and pulled up some weeds. All I heard was screams and slaps . I turned to her only to see her hitting at mosquitoes. I took off my hoodie. “here put on my hoodie, it will cover your arms” “thank you” she said in a soft sweet way. After that we went back to that café from the other night. We went in. “Sabrina order what you want I am paying this time.” You don’t have to do that V” “let me pay Sabrina it will make me feel better” I told her She ordered a burger I ordered some streak and eggs. Our food arrived and Sabrina began to talk to me. I laughed “what” she asked. “nothing, I am just not used to talking while eating” “we don’t have to if it is uncomfortable” “no, no I much prefer to”

“Is the burger good?’ “yes, but I it pales in comparison to a burger from my home town at a resturant call Maggie’s they have the best food. As Sabrina talked I could not help, but to think about how beautiful she was and how much she was like no one woman I had ever talked to. I was finding myself attracted to Sabrina physically. That would have been okay I am attracted physically to many women around here, but I was also attracted to her personally in a non physical way. I knew it was wrong, but I was convinced I could control myself. We finished our food and I asked her if she wanted some dessert. She ordered a piece of that cherrie pie again. “would you like to have a bite of my cherry pie” “I would love a piece”. She fed me a piece of the pie. We got the check it was twenty-one dollars and sixty-eight cents. I paid the waitress. We drove to her apartment. She showed me around it was realy nice. Big for one person, and not really big for one person. She did something in her room, “we can fo now. I am waiting on phone call about an internship this summer. As we walked she shut the door and locked it she put her back against the door and pulled me to her. “I really want you tonight V” she told me as I moved in to kiss her. I didn’t, I rested my head on the wall beside her head. “I have a girlfriend who I love very much” I didn’t ever look at her I knew how she felt and I felt the same way. I began to leave. “let me take you home V” she told me. “No, it isn’t that far to my dorm I should really walk.” I said to her. She said okay.

As I walked I had to think about the entire Sabrina situation. About half way through my walk my phone rang. I answered the phone it was Gabrielle “hey baby” “don’t call me baby Vernon” “yeah I know, I am sorry” “ I was calling to tell you sorry we have not talked much the last couple of days. I have to handle some of my grandfather’s business again and will be in town Wednesday. I hope you forgive me for not calling.” “yeah it is okay” I told her. “I am going to bed now Vernon” I went to the dorm and took a shower and got in the bed. I hardly slept that night. I felt so guilty.

The next day I didn’t have class till noon. I sat through the class barely paying attention. I loved Gabrielle, but she wasn’t here. After class I went straight to the dorm and played the X-box and I got a knock at the door. Answered it, it was Donald. “hey man where were you yesterday” “I had school stuff to do Donald. I almost kissed someone Yesterday. I said. “I told you man. You’re a guy and what do guys need.” “I don’t know what to do I need help” “this time I can not help you I am going on a date with Tanya, the girl from the other night, plus I never been in a serious relationship. We can talk about it later man” I stayed in all night

The next day I waited for Donald. “hey listen man I thought about you situation and I think that you should tell Gabrielle and not see Sabrina again” Donald told me. I was surprised the Donald said that. “Why do you say that” I asked. “I think that maybe you and gabrielle have something cool going on. I am really feeling Tanya”. Donald and I went to class when I got their I sat in my usual desk. A minute later Sabrina sat next to me. “Hey V” “Hey Sabrina, about last night” “No need, consider it forgotton. We can still be friends” “Yeah, we can” “ I need you to bring me you journal for your jar over to my apartment. I can come get it or what ever.” She told me. I was really impressed that she was being cool about it all I still had feeling for her and I could tell she still had feeling for me.

After Classes I went to the dorm and waited on Gabriell. She came about fourish. When she arrived we went riding around. “I cannot stay all night like before I have a test tommorrow. We went and got something to eat and ate at the park. After we ate we looked up at the stars. “Gabrielle what is your test on” “it is a statistics test. I have been struggling in this class I really need to be studying , but I wanted to see you. We have been really distant lately” I love you Gabrielle” She then kissed me. We kissed for some time. “make love to me Gabrielle”. At that moment she stopped” “I am not going to have sex with you” “we can do other things Gabrielle. I need intamacy. You cannot expect me to live miles away from you and then when I do see you I have to be careful with myself around you” “so it is all about sex with you” she said to me as she pushed me off her. “is it that you don’t care about what I need or want Gabrielle?” I asked “I just need intamacy you won’t say you love me or kiss me in public, and you hang a bunch of dudes and get mad at me for being upset.” I said “one I just kissed you in public, and those guys are just my friends if you trusted me it wouldn’t be a problem. “you kissed me in a park with no one else around. That makes me feel real special, like I am an embarrasment”. She took back to the dorm. “I want a man who wants me and isn’t just in it for sex. I want a friend. She told me. “maybe that is it you want a friend instead of a boyfriend. I want a girlfriend. Someone who wants me is attracted to me, and needs me as much as I want them. I want an intimate relationship.” I shut the door. I opened my dorm door. I sat on my bed and saw my journal report. I decided to take it to Sabrina. I had forgot all about it.

I knocked on her door about three time. She finally answered the door. “Hey V” “hey Sabrina I was just bringing the journal.” I handed it to her. She had some french cut panties on and a matching bra with this little bitty robe that covered nothing really. “thank you V” she told me. She took it out of my hand. Then I kissed her. I shut her front door and we kissed all the way to her bedroom. She took off my shirt, and I unhooked her bra. She laid on the bed and I slowly pulled down her panties. I kissed her all over her body starting at her thighs. I stopped at her breast and kissed them. Eventually we were both naked. We began to have sex. I stroked gently, but firmly. We kissed passionately. She dug her nails into my back as I kissed her neck. She moaned loudly. My phone rang. I knew the ring tone it was gabrielle. I reached for the phone. Sabrina grabbed the phone before I did. “this is our night”. I took the phone from her, and muted it. “I know” I said.

The next morning I woke up as she was getting dressed. “hey about last night we should not have done that. I am sorry” “I am not you will be back. You are trying to hold on to something that is gone with your girlfriend” your will realize that, and you will back. We will move forward from their. She kissed me on the check. “lock the door when you leave.

I skipped class that day I would not have concentrated I knocked on Donalds door. He answered the door. “I had sex with someone else last night” we talked for a some time in the cafeteria. “listen man me and Tanya are getting serious, so I kinda see what you and gabrielle had. I mean had. It is obvious that you two want different things. I know you love her that is why you are trying so hard to hold on. You should not have had sex with that girl, but she is right. You are trying to hold on to something that is gone. We walked back to the Dorms. I went to my room thinking for about an hour whether I should tell gabrielle. Eventually I did call her. “she answered the phone apalogizing. “listen Gabrielle. I had sex with someone last night. I know it is wrong, but we are having problems that we need to work out” I listened to her cry silently she was trying to hide it. Always having to be strong. “I never want to see or talk to you again. I loved you V” she then abruptly hung up in my face.

I called Gabrielle for weeks. She never answered my calls. I sent her flowers and gifts. After a while I gave up. Sabrina and I had an open relationship throughout college. Donald eventually married Tanya his junior year. I learned a lot from my relationship with Gabrielle and Sabrina. Those relationship helped me have healthy relationship later on in life.